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Anonymous


It’s 1:15 am as I write this.

I’m tired. I’ve worked just under 17 hours today, but I can’t sleep.

Too bad. I will start at 8 am again tomorrow for another 8 to 9 hour day.

I can’t sleep because I’m thinking about my patient with the declining oxygen saturation. I worry that I may have missed something in the history, in the investigations… did the on call physician and I make the right decision?

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Daniel Bierstone

Daniel Bierstone

University of Toronto

Class of 2016


On the first day of my Social Paediatrics elective, I accompanied a nurse on a visit to a family shelter. I entered the single room and noticed a healthy newborn girl, sleeping peacefully in an old crib. The room consisted of a bed, a table, two chairs, a fridge, and a microwave. There was no stove, no kitchen sink. Clothes, toiletries, dishes and bottles were strewn everywhere. The floor was dirty and there was graffiti on the wall. One of the parents was present, but the other was out looking for work. It was my first time in a shelter, and I was stunned that a family with a newborn was living in such conditions.

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Adriano MollicaAdriano Mollica
University of Toronto
Class of 2019

I look at you, and I wish
there was some sort of incantation to whisper
that could string together all the fickle words
grazing around the summit of my throat
and instill a frenzy in their small limbs
so they may leap across the oceanic void
that is the silence between my mouth and you being healthy again. ...continue reading

Kevin DueckKevin Dueck
Class of 2016
Western University

(Behind a curtain in the Emergency Department)

He grabbed me...
how could I be so stupid.
Grabbed my ponytail...
cries
and... and slammed me into the doorframe.
No one was around... I curled into a ball... tried to protect my head.
wipes tears
I was almost to the door... Oh God!
With my training... why didn't I see it coming? ...continue reading

Mary Koziol 3Mary Koziol
McGill University
Class of 2018

“MARRRIEEEEEEEE!”

These enthusiastic greetings solidify Tuesday as my favourite day of week. As I enter the classroom, several of the girls come running to give me a hug, squealing my name in excitement. It’s my weekly afternoon at Les Scientistes, a program designed to encourage young girls from low-income communities to discover science. ...continue reading

DSC05331-1Jason Gencher
University of Toronto
Class of 2018

An etiolated octogenarian calls out,
Barely audible beyond his room.
He beckons for a small sponge
To wet his cracked blue lips.
Pictures of his family are taped to his closet,
A makeshift fifty square foot home.  ...continue reading

Rabea ParpiaRabea Parpia
University of Toronto
Class of 2019

His voice is warm and soft, each sentence running into the next, broken up only by gravelly laughter and the occasional cough. The honey that coats his voice obscures his jarring story, the suffering hidden beneath the evenness of his tone. He tells me about his injury, rating his pain on a scale of one to ten, and describes its quality and radiation. I ask him for his previous medical diagnoses and he pauses briefly. ...continue reading

Adriano MollicaAdriano Mollica
University of Toronto
Class of 2019

the crevices in my hands could never course deep enough
to hold all the life that has moved between your synapses

and yet, in the basement labs of my medical school
I am holding every part of who you were ...continue reading

headshotAdam Mosa
Queen's University
Class of 2018

Screen Shot 2016-05-28 at 11.00.37 AM Charcoal on paper.

This drawing was inspired by recent discussions with classmates on achieving balance during medical studies.

Fatmah AlzahraniFatmah Alzahrani
Dalhousie University
Class of 2017

My head is pounding
From long nights without sleep,
My remedy is to punch through,
Hoping to find the good memories I used to keep.

It’s getting harder to reset the darkness in my mind.
Yet I plaster a weak smile,
I hope it looks genuine and kind.

Cause there are still people to be seen,
And oh so many things to do.
It will never end, it will never do.

They tell me what to do,
And I yearn to learn,
But my constant worry,
Makes it easy to burn.

The inferno that passed,
Is quickly extinguished.
All for a possibility of becoming distinguished.

When I was young,
They said it would happen one day,
But one day has arrived; the clock has swung.

Shouldn’t I be happy?
Shouldn’t I be glad?

For helping with health,
In addition to earning wealth!

One of those eternal evenings,
It repeated what was rife.
We are mere mortal beings,
So it’s a life for a life!
Oh,
So,
It will never end, it will never do;
until my time is due.